Wednesday, June 24, 2009

Mission Trip 19-21 June

The past 5 days in Kota Kinabalu has been a blessed time. The 18 of us from Malacca boarded the Air Asia plane to KK and what a joy to see Paulus and Sis Helga waiting for us outside the airport. We have so many luggages and one van was needed to fit just that. We arrived in Grace Point for lunch and the journey to Terintindon began. The ride for the first 2 hours was good but as we crossed the bridge, the tar road turned to gravel road with stones and dirt. It was a 1 an half hour bumpy ride.

We were welcomed by the pastor and villagers as soon as we stepped off the van. The condition of the village was nice and not as bad as my previous mission trips. They have water and electric and the church was well structured with comfortable musical instruments.

As soon as we had our first meeting, I headed off to put on my clown make-up.
It has been ages since I last make up and I surprised myself that I did a good job despite
no practise for at least 2 years. I told myself, Jesus this is for You. I'm not working but this is Serving you, I want the kids to see a clown for themselves. My usual half an hour makeup time became nearly one hour as I meticulously painted my face.

I was the center of attention and the kids had never seen a clown before. Since I used to work in major shopping malls,kids in the cities are very familiar with clowns. They will request for balloon sculptures whereas the kids in this village has never seen a balloon sculpture before.

The next morning a young boy held on to a inflated balloon like his little treasure. I asked him to give it to me and he refused. I didn't want him to bite and choke on the rubber. I have never seen city kids treasuring an inflated balloon in such a way. My heart melted and I made for him a new one and more kids came.

The kids in the village are warm and waiting to be close to us. Many children hugged me especially the girls and the boys were well behaved. They will listen to instruction and are very much attentive.

The children's Sunday School class rooms are without much facilities and they do not even have a single colour pencil for the children to colour. How I wished I have the money to buy for each child. Nevertheless, I had fun teaching the children Action songs and Acting out skits and mimes for them. I asked who wants to accept Jesus as their Lord and Saviour and all hands up.

We prayed and I commit the kids to JESUS.
Indeed, my mission for the whole weekend was touching the lives of children. I didn't really participated in the adult sessions. The children are running around without any activities and I decided to take out my pump and balloons. I had at least 50 kids surrounding me each wanting a balloon. At least I tried to maintain the quietness for 45 mins.

I enjoyed seeing children singing along with the adult worship and it also saddened me that the kids are not treated as gems. We want to see kids as future leaders and they are the one who will be future leaders and pastors of the church.

What a weekend to commemorate Dino and my first year wedding anniversary. Serving Jesus together is our desire and we are going to serve and worship Him all of our lives. We had a fun time eating and relaxing at Tanjung Aru with the gang. The 2 extra days in Sabah has been a holiday for us both and we enjoyed every moment in Sabah.

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Set Free!!!!!

Well, I feel much lighter emotionally and spiritually and not pyhsically yet. HEHEHE
Anyway, yesterday's meeting was fruitful.
It was definitely a time of Restoration and Pastor Ed reminded us that indeed what Judith and I had was a blessing from Jesus. Our friendship is at the verge of breaking or making yesterday nite. We either make it or break it for good.

WE both agreed that we have acted childishly and has allowed the devil to robbed us of our joy, our friendship and has chosen to ignore the hurts and misunderstandings.

We both apologised for hurting each other and choose to accept that we both are imperfect. Judith has expectation on me and I have insecurities with my friendship with her.

We choose to allow the holy spirit to mend in His time and now, it's all settled..

I am liberated..
A closure for me...
Thank you JEsus

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Ta da.............

Tonite's the nite where the confrontation and resolvement begins..:)
I will go with an open heart. Will let the Holy Spirit work through me and I will choose to be humble.

To acknowledge my pride, to acknowledge my insecurities, to see that I am imperfect, and shred away all negativity, shred away anger, bitterness, unforgiveness and whatever that is not of Him.

Do I have fear to face what will be thrown at me? Yes... I am human..
Do I know I will be set free? Yes I am confident..Cos I choose to be set free from all this chronic root of bitterness and unforgiveness.. I want to be set free.. I want to soar like an EAGLE.

So today, I choose to forgive.. I choose not to be judgmental. I choose to be open and accept any rebuke. I choose to walk in liberty...in freedom...and to unloose and remove every baggage that I've been carrying for a long time..

Jesus, You are so so good. I know Lord You are incharged..:)
I know You are good..

Monday, June 15, 2009

A Reminisence

The events that unfolded during the weekend was something the Lord has very much prepared me for it. He knows me so well and I was reminded of His love and mercy when someth big is going to happen. He always prepare me in advance, giving me hints, dreams and revelations.

I especially was reminded of the times I was in Cameron Highlands Camp (Camp Cam) years ago. Annette told me this in particular, Elina, you need to let it all go. And shout if you have too, and CRIED it all out. I have enough baggage with me that is dragging and pulling me back to be the woman Jesus wants me to be.

On a particular Sun, when we are to spend quiet time alone the whole day, 3 of us were driven to Boh Tea plantation by Kim Cheng and we were left to SCREAM, CRY, Letting go every thing that has bottled up over the years. IT was REFreshing and I feel light after that. That was how I got to know Chooi Foong and the other girl.

A breakthrough is taking place and I know I'm at the very brim of it. It's anytime from now. Pastor Ed gave me the word of Knowledge during our Retreat in April. The Lord is going to change something and it will hurt. Something needs to be broken so that I can move on a higher level in my spiritual life.I know something big is going to happen..

Well, as the leaders gather for our RLF outings we have each shared our joy, or challenge in serving. Sis Paecy told us to share if we have any ill or negative feelings towards the people gather here, we should settle it in a godly matter. Let the other person know how we truly feel and be transparent towards the others. Judith told me she doesnt like my attitude in delegating ppl. Well, anyway I am often misunderstood and I cannot remember rolling my eyes towards her. She shouted and was being rude to me. Anyway, to cut the story short, it was an uncomfortable nite for all. Judith walked away angrily.

I went home being affected with the whole drama and couldnt sleep the whole nite. I ask Jesus to show me and reveal to me what is the root cause? I need to find the root and settle it once and for all. I realised that the negative feelings she had for me was traced back way before my wedding. One week before my wedding,she didnt wanted to be my bridesmaid and confronted me about being rude to her. Well, more often than not, my intentions was never revealed. What I feel for a particular person was often not justified. I feel I do not get the benefit of doubt for every single actions.

I couldnt sleep last nite as well. I cried hard and long. It hurts to be going through a period of pain, moulding, transforming, healing. Sis Paecy was there for. ADvising me and encouraged me when I am at my lowest point.

I have decided to be humble and forgiving. I have decided to step ahead and to clear the wall between me and Judith. I have choosen what the holy spirit wants me to do.
It's not easy, it's uncomfortable but will choose to take the better path in order to experience my breaktru.

Again, as I cried and think last nite, it's going to be a few more days to my first year anniversary.The devil has been trying his best to make me upset. Causing so much problem and I know that everything happens for a reason and the Lord has prepared me..After every storm there will be a calm. I'm ready Lord to venture into another level. I believe for a blessed marriage, a blessed financial situation, a blessed house we can call our home, a blessed bunch of offsprings and blessed woman.


I have begun to pray and

Friday, June 12, 2009

Gynae visit

Hubby and I have been trying for a baby for nearly a year. (You would have realized if you read the previous posts) We have been believing that Jesus will bless us with a son when the time is right.

I do not have regular period since I was young hence the ability to conceive frustrates me in the beginning when we just got married. I was super paranoid and will stock up on Pregnancy test kit of various brand and shapes when all the results are negative..Only one line instead of the double line which I have very much anticipated. Well after many months of no news, I gave up.

Yesterday I went to the gynae after my period came 2 weeks once for 3 times in a row. I was shocked and decided to visit Dr.Liu, the renounce gynae in Melaka. The wait was terrible even though I went on weekday. Half way through, Dr.Liu had someone on the verge of delivery and he ran over to the Pantai hospital.

I was glad after 1.5 hours of wait, my turn came. Told Dr.Liu my predicament and he asked me to lye down for him to scan. Wow, the first time I look into my system. My womb size was measured about 7cm which is normal and both ovaries looks fine.

Hubby thought I couldn't see the screen and he didn't understood a word that came out of Dr.Liu's mouth, Ovaries, tubes, lining of the uterus wall seems like a foreign language to him. He was worried that he will need to explain to me what the doc said. Much to his relief, I ask the doc a few questions regarding what I saw on the screen..My layer of fats is like 2-3cm THICK. That's FAt man..
:)

Anyway, Dr.Liu said my condition is called Dysfunctional Uterine Bleeding. I google it up and he said its common among women. He prescribed Norcolut for me to take for 21 days. (some form of contraceptive) After that, I should be able to have normal period cycle and he ask me to take Clostilbegyt on my DAy 2 of period. He said I should be able to be pregnant in 3-6 months time. If not hubby must be checked to see whether is he shooting blanks..:)


I am happy to know that there is nothing wrong with me. It's merely hormone imbalance. I went to the doc after 1 year of trying and now, I'm trusting Jesus as He is the best doc. I believe there is no coincident for me to go for check up.

Thursday, June 11, 2009

Make Up Course

I signed up yesterday to learn Personal Make up Course from Ambridge Cottage.
Well, they have been my make up artist for a year since my wedding. The best I've
found so far in my little state of Melaka.

I like the personal training lessons given by Agnes...and of course with Eric jumping in to
scare me..He loves to see me ramble my words away when in shock. (melatah)
Yesterday's first lesson was theory where I was introduced with the different tools and make up functions.

The toughest will be the drawing of eye brow on paper. Phew. Spent more than 1 hour after lesson practising and I still havent got the hang of it. Just photocopy the sheets for me to practise again.
Hubby saw me without make up on my face thinking my class has been canceled or someth. Hehehe Men..

Digressing to another event which got me elated, I join the http://www.thebigcameradebate.com and well I join to try to win
a camera worth RM 1500. You would have noticed my blog are deprived of pics thats because my camera failed me over a year ago. Just do not have the cash to get a new one.. I was Shocked, Happy, Surprised, In doubt to see my Post was chosen as the post of the day. Wo hoooo...
I squinted my eyes..(Lately been seeing double visions) To read the comment and to make sure I did infact wrote that..

The topic for the second day was depth of field. "Dept oph pill?Whats that?A foreign language to the Comps which doesnt give isolation to the object as commanded by man. Who's da man now?

Heheheh my comment got chosen..I did posted a few others which I really can't remember..At least I'm in the eligible round..
Hopefully, I can win the camera which I really really really want..
:)

Tuesday, June 09, 2009

1st Year Anniversary

Wow it's the 2nd week of June already. Can you believe how time just flies through your nose?
Even as I ponder, it is going to be a year to my 1st year wedding anniversary. Dino and I always look at each other whenever we get questions like how do you guys met? Both of us will push each other to tell while the other will just laugh away.

Yeah, it was a funny tale on how 2 people met in the most unlikely place and time. A good friend of mine, then Edmund was going to be ordained to be a pastor. So, a group of us came from Melaka and Singapore to witness this special occasion. Back then, I was still studying in Pg and took the bus down to our headquarters aka bunking place at the Ladies House in Kota Kemuning. (Ami, Judith, Helga, Kizzy and Paulus(not a lady) house.

I arrived a day before the rest and caught up with the gang. There's when I heard they, namely Aunty Girl (Ps.Ed's mum) are planning to match make Ami and a guy name Dino. When I heard that, I laughed as the name Dino was funny. Imagine Ami was disturbed excessiveness by me calling her Mrs.Dinosaur and all that.

The next day, the gang from Melaka came and as Dino walked into the house, I saw a bald man with a thick mustache and I couldnt stop laughing. I was laughing at Ami most of the time...

Dino's story...
As he was walking in, there was this girl whose laughter shook the whole house..laughing hysterically without any apparent reason. There was when he noticed me.

And then, as they said, the rest is history. :)

Today, I am happily married and being married is definitely good. :)
Thank You Jesus for giving me the best man that suits me best.
You know my needs, my wants, my desire and also my biggest dreams.

:)