A lazy day

The wait for my Blessed bf was indeed worth it. We had a lot of fun eating and sight-seeing in this so called Pearl of the Orient. For Blessed, it was a holiday cum visiting me in my glum of doing my thesis. As usual, what can you do in Pg except to fill your guts with the mouth watering food. The stomach has no room for all the yummy-licious food that I want my Blessed to try.

The moment he stepped down from the bus till the day he stepped back on the bus, he never say, "Whew, so nice man..." Hahaha, it brought such joy to my heart as I see blessed enjoying his food. He finds it comical when I explain the food we are eating and how nice it is. He looks at me with this look in his eyes that seem to wonder how in this world this girl can love eating so much.

I brought him to Woodlands, an Indian restaurant in Market street. I ordered Sambar Vadhai which I absolute enjoy, and though it looks simple but it just melts in your mouth. The fusion of hot sambar and the aromatic herbs that accompanies it just blew away all your senses. Blessed saw mw with this look that says, Yummy. Even though he has the same thing on his plate, he took his spoon and scoup some from my plate. For a moment, I just stared at him. Then burst out laughing as I asked him why cant he eat from his own plate. He said, the way you eat seems like yours is better than mine. Hahhhaa..What a joke..

We spent a lot of time shopping for Him and visited some tourist places. It's been 5 years I lived here and can you believe I have not been to Fort Conwallis? ?Hahaha, ok, since blessed loves history, he enjoyed these places.. Penang hill was a waste of time and the nite scene in Pg amazes Blessed..:)

HAd fun eating with Adeline, Joseph and Jerry. Did a lot of fun things together and Pg feels different whn I have blessed with me. The food taste better. The places looks nicer and I guess that's why they say, everything around you disappear when you are so engrossed with your lover.

I'm waiting

The day started early as I heard Dan rushing out for work and as he hurriedly showered and left the house. He was 1 and half hour late. I opened my eyes and took my hp and called my Blessed Dino. He was in the bus station buying a bus ticket to KL and then transit to Penang.

My heart leaping with joy as I switch on the Astto and log on to the laptop. Vowing to finish my first draft for my first chapter of thesis. My concentration level lasted for 45 mins only when I finally realised it was time for Oprah. Since I stayed in Joshua and Dan's place, Oprah has always been Adeline and my wake up show. Today show was not as emotional as the previous Oprah series.

Then, I count the hour and called Blessed again. He is reaching Kl and I got fed up with my thesis and took a short nap. Doesnt the time always passes by so slowly as we anticipate for something and good times always passes by so quickly that we hardly have any time to savour it? Yes, the waiting game..Argh..

Hmm, now sitting in the Pc room and trying to pass my time waiting for the arrival of Blessed. Another 2 hours to go and it seems like a long long time to wait..Yes...Wait....for the love of my life..

(Hahahahhaa, as I type this, my 'bulu-roma' also stand. Sorry guys, this blog is not meant to be a romantic fiction novel or some sort..Just a rant of a crazily in love girl who cant wait to see her boyfriend) Oh..I am such a hopeless case...

Satay

Today was spent doing nothing as I cant sleep much during the nite. I guess this is due to the enormous stress that I am facing. Thesis need to be pass up on 9 April. At the moment, I just manage to do 2 and a half pages where as I need to come out with 60. I wonder how in the world I would be able to do that. By Your Grace Lord.

Had an enjoyable evening as I spent it with Daniel. We went Tesco for grocery shopping and he later brought me to eat some yummy-licious satay. Boy, it taste so good. Must bring Dino there when he comes to visit me this Wed. Can't wait to see him. Miss him so much.

Staying with Daniel and Cheryl has been fun. Its a very comfortable place to stay in with Astro and a pool where I take a dip once a while. The Astro of course is distracting but am enjoying it. Wakes up by 9am to catch the one hour Oprah Talk Show.

Currently, the Mat Rempit thesis that I am doing is killing me. Argh..I pray that I will be able to graduate. I dread to think of the future if I cant graduate..Phew, it send shudders to my spine when I think of it.

YOU can Do it Elina cos in Christ, nothing is impossible for Him.

Thesis is so hard to do

I've been spending half the day on the computer and only came out with 2 pages on my introduction to my thesis. It's so hard to do. Hmmm, I pray that I will be able to graduate in time. I dont't want to let this thesis be a hindrance to the things that I want to do.

Changed the template of my blog and gave it a more uplifting look. I need that in my life rite now and I really really need a good long break after I finish my thesis.

I dont feel like studying anymore after my Masters and just to go out into the world to work..
In the uni alone and I guess I better make a move cos its getting late.

Hey, I am back

I havent log on to blogger for so long and I cant remember my username and password. It took me awhile to figure it out. (letting go a sigh of relief)

I was just googling my name and to my surprise, my blog is in a few links of some friends. What made me put my face to the dusty pc screen was when I saw a PKA website with both my blog links. One is this and the other is my saja-saja blog in friendster. Phew, I wonder who was the detective that was behind the website..:) (I salute you.) I didnt even know PKA has a website. That shows how lost I am in the varsity.

Doing my thesis at the moment and the last time I checked the calender, I have less than 25 days to finish my thesis. Argh.......Arghhhhh.....

Hmm, Im meeting Jerry to to watch MEtrosexual soon..Will write more tmrw..Who reads my blog anyway??? Hmm, dun want to embarass myself since I know ppl can view me easier now..)

I shall be back

SIgh

"My life is brilliant. My love is pure. I saw an angel. Of that I'm sure. "

This song is playing in my head as I type away on this old Pentium @ acer laptop. I am in a happy mood but my body ache. Hehhee,just told my woman boss that this will be my last day. As I am not interested to work anymore..

HE didnt call and neither did I. I really think that he is not going to call me anytime soonn...
Sigh....happy n upset at the same time. Sigh..Sound so lame..

More rants

Many times I have tried stealing some time away to pen down my thoughts on this blog. I know that hardly anyone reads them but its more of a journal that I can retrieve anytime I want,provided this website doesnt shut down.

Something happened yesterday that was unforgettable. My first time taking the ferry over to Tev's place riding a bike. Had a pleasant conversation with an Uncle whose motor is just next to me. He has indirectly distracted me from the dizziness and nauseaness from the ferry ride.

Had our fav vegetarian 'chu cha' in Chai Leng Park and went for a walk in Carrefour. Checking out some Sony Ericson phone and I still like750i....Sigh.....when will it be in my hands?

Found out something that I never knew yesterday hurt me a lot. With people that I regard friendly, actually are the ones that such comments will come out from their mouth. Even though it has been a long time ago,it still affected me. I chose to rationalize the reason for him to say that and tried to console myself.

Nothing is more shocking to find out that actually a very trusted friend didnt believe in you in the first place. Telling you lies in order to physco you so you will come out of the pitt of depression doesnt help at all when you actually know its not sincere and a Lie is still a lie..
Argh...i cant think rationaly, I really cant.

Help me to see that things are different now. That all the things he said has a reason..I am so upset..

Test

I am just testing this photo upload stuff..:)

Being touched

I had an exhausted week. Had a long conversation with Tev last nite. Was so exhauted and can barely open my eyes. Was feeling really down and stressed due to so many things that has been going on.

From rushing from one place to the other to find the possible trigger and problems. I was merely expressing my concern and fears about somethings. Tev couldnt understand and giving me some solution, telling me to backup on certain things. I think I am just as confused and afraid of my actions and thoughts. Not sure what is right or wrong anymore.

He was very frustrated with me not telling him and is very worried with me. He doesnt want me to have any added pressure. I simply want him to listen to my rant rather than giving me a solution. Well, I feel very touched with his concern and I sense his genuinity. DEspite that, I fail to express what are the things that i fear and what I feel to him. I simply cant tell not because I dont want too...but rather just cant to translate my feelings into words.

At the end of the day, i shut my eyes knowing I am loved and cared, but on the other hand, i feel shitty knowing someone will wonder bout my troubles and not able to concentrate on the things at hand. Sorry Tev. I know u wont be reading this. Want to tell you this anyway...Thank you for caring for me..

Being touched

I had an exhausted week. Had a long conversation with Tev last nite. Was so exhauted and can barely open my eyes. Was feeling really down and stressed due to so many things that has been going on.

From rushing from one place to the other to find the possible trigger and problems. I was merely expressing my concern and fears about somethings. Tev couldnt understand and giving me some solution, telling me to backup on certain things. I think I am just as confused and afraid of my actions and thoughts. Not sure what is right or wrong anymore.

He was very frustrated with me not telling him and is very worried with me. He doesnt want me to have any added pressure. I simply want him to listen to my rant rather than giving me a solution. Well, I feel very touched with his concern and I sense his genuinity. DEspite that, I fail to express what are the things that i fear and what I feel to him. I simply cant tell not because I dont want too...but rather just cant to translate my feelings into words.

At the end of the day, i shut my eyes knowing I am loved and cared, but on the other hand, i feel shitty knowing someone will wonder bout my troubles and not able to concentrate on the things at hand. Sorry Tev. I know u wont be reading this. Want to tell you this anyway...Thank you for caring for me..

At the wrong place n time

Everything happens for a reason.Its ironic that you happenned to be there at the right time and seems to get involve in things which you will rather not. Hmm, not sure the timing is so right that I now acts as the medium for a lot of information.

This whole week has been really tiring and frustating. For starters, the earliest I get to sleep is past midnite. Have alwayst been a late sleeper but due to my internship, my working hours are freaking long. 9-6pm. By the time you reach home and past through the massive jam, you will be physically and emotionally worn out.

Been seeing Tevan nearly everyday because of a friend whom we are all concerned for.Sigh, at the moment, we are feeling so helpless at the moment. Hmmm, I pray that everything will work out fine.

Stressed up.

At the wrong place n time

Everything happens for a reason.Its ironic that you happenned to be there at the right time and seems to get involve in things which you will rather not. Hmm, not sure the timing is so right that I now acts as the medium for a lot of information.

This whole week has been really tiring and frustating. For starters, the earliest I get to sleep is past midnite. Have alwayst been a late sleeper but due to my internship, my working hours are freaking long. 9-6pm. By the time you reach home and past through the massive jam, you will be physically and emotionally worn out.

Been seeing Tevan nearly everyday because of a friend whom we are all concerned for.Sigh, at the moment, we are feeling so helpless at the moment. Hmmm, I pray that everything will work out fine.

Stressed up.

Dying Trades

Today marks the 3rd day of my internship in Intact Communications, a magazine publishing house in Penang. My MA does not require me to do industrial training. Being the so called Responsible Malaysia youth who shouldnt be 'lepaking' around and to spend my semester break 'wisely',here I am as an intern to write for the magazine. Initially, I wanted to do design but it was not advisable as I do not have any design background.

Well, my first assignment was to write on Thai massage. My supervisor,aka ex housemates,Cheryl has edited my piece for more than 3 times already. Hahaha, for a beginner I dont think I did that bad la..

Something happened to a friend recently and I am quite upset about it. I hope he manages to get out of the depression.

Went out for interviews and in search of the dying trade of Penang. Managed to interview the traditional songkok maker. The traditional goldsmith and latern maker wanted me to come back next week.

My job here is getting exciting. Hahaha, at least I do not dread to come to work so much..

Been some time since I last blog...Just realised my title was Finding the Writer in me. Hopefully, by the end of this training, I will be able to write better...

:)

What's Wrong With Me?

Lately, I have been getting lotsa comments on my age. Well, it all started when I accompanied my ex-teacher aka goodfriend to a chinese dinner with his other friends a few months back. Well, as we exchanged the usual formalities of introduction, and as the chinese cuisine was being served, the uncle or the some doctor working in Pantai Hospital asked me,

"So Elina, what are you doing now? Which form are you in?"

Dressed in a pink sun dress, I confidently said, "Oh, I am currently doing my Masters in USM."

His expression turned shocked as he was pouring the Chinese tea from the little tea pot. "Huh!!" he uttered. "I thought you in Form 3. You looked so young."

I flushed. I didnt know to take his remark as a compliment or an insult. I looked like a KID!!!!! Argh....

Well, the I brushed off the episode with the excuse that this senile old surgeon with thick glasses must have suffered serious cornea problem.

Just last week, I took my Samsung hp to the service centre for some repair. Well, the girl behind the counter took my name, ic and address. She was like, "Oh, you are from Melaka?"

I simply smiled and said, "Yeah. I am studying here."

Our kay-poh friend probe further. "Oh, which secondary school are you in?"

I replied as a matter of factly, "I am studying in USM." with my eye spying on whatever information she is scribbling on some form.

"Oh, you in your first year?"

I said, "No. I am doing my Masters."

"You look so young." She stopped writing and looked up at me. "You have baby face."

I am not sure whether is she putting her words nicely whereas to say, you have chubby or round face.

With that statement, I went all the way home to change into something more feminine and mature.

With the intention of cutting my hair, I went to a Salon in Prangin Mall. As the kady washes my hair, we exchanges small talk like what kinda shampoo are you currently using? (She is trying to get me to buy some expensive shampoo)

"How old are you?" she asked while giving my scalp a good scracth and massaging my head.

"24," I answered while my fingers flipping through some glossy female magazines.

"Oh, you looked so young. I thought you are like in your teens. the oldest also 20"

I just smiled...and in my head was like... WTF s wrong with everyone? Or was it just me?

When the creative hairstylist came over, I told him to give me a new hair style...
And hence, after an hour sitting down there with him cutting and cropping my long hair...Now, I have less than shoulder length hair..

With the image that stares back at me, I now look like a 15 year old girl, I just need to put on the blue uniform....and trust me....I look 15 without a doubt..:)

Now I look more like my mum in my short hair...

What's Wrong With Me?

Sitting in Se Ra's Room

Se Ra is my 12 year old Korean student. She has been here for about 7 months and has been attending Dalat International School here in Penang. I started teaching her English just 3 weeks ago but 4 hours per session and 3 times a week. At first teaching 3 hours in a row is crazy and now I am enjoying it. All my creativity is squeezed out of me so both she and I wont get bored with each other. Yesterday we made Jumucpap, a Korean delicacy which is like rice balls. Currently she is lying on her bed writing an essay on the steps of making the dish..Hehehe, here I am blogging away with my borrowed laptop. (She is complaining that I am mean cos I asked her to write the steps of making the dish..)She just glared at me..:) and whined.. Hmm, having a laptop is so convenient. Anyone reading this and wants to get me a birthday, an obvious hint for you. Yeah, she is now saying she is having headache..(Hahahhaa, excuses) Yeah, my last day of teaching her. A hectic day is waiting for me today, after tuition I have group discussion for my Film production and later 2 more appointments and one more tuition at 8pm...Hmm, at least tomorrow I am more freee.... Cant wait to go back to Melaka.

Its 2006!!!!!

How 2005 came and gone...
I know this is a late entry...

I have been so busy that I hardly have the time to sit down and blog.
Well, 2006 has started on the rite note een though it has been a tiring and roller coaster ride for me emotionally and spiritually throughout 2005..

I am glad I started with the Author of my life. I have been gaining so much experience this month alone..I gained experienced with teaching Se Ra a 12 year old Korean girl. At first, teaching 4 hours of English straight was definately a chore and difficult.
Now, I enjoy my 4 hours with her and its sad that tomorrow will be my last day.
Hmm, promised her a gift if she get all correct for her english spelling tomorrow..
Aww..I miss her already..

Well, wat else, oh yeah, I did clowning for Digi roadshow.3 days in a row. Damn tiring but was a good experience. How to talk to the kids and physco them.,..hahaha

SO lost

I dont know how many actually reads my blog. But I will write anyway. Sorry for all those ranting on how sad my life is and never actually looking at the things that HE has laid out for me.

Straying from the path is a real painful experience. When you are lost out there and there seem like no other way out, you just feel so lost. Every other steps taken are of your own will and understanding and of course by your own strength.

I long to sit at His feet again. Just listening and doing nothing. I long for the drink that He offered at the well that once you drinkit, you will never thirst again. I long for the closeness....and yet everything seems so far away.

This is one hell of a lost track......I am so LOST..

It's weird

It's weird when everyone around you tells you that you are different.
It's weird when all the friendship that you once shared has turn sour.
It's weird when you saw your ex fling at a wedding dinner.
It's weird when the ppl you trusted gave up on you.

It's weird when you also agree with what others say about you.
It's weird when you still dont give a shit.
It's weird when you are so sad inside but smilling to the world.
It's weird when you feel so alone in this world.

It's weird when everytime you blog you are sad.
It's weird when u love somebody, that person just doesnt care.
It's weird when you give your all, all u receive is ignorance.

It's weird to feel what I am feeling right now..

I miss blogging

To my friends who read my blog.....

I miss you guys and I misss blogging..

hahaha...no more working in Dell and no more 10 hrs free net connection..
hahhahaa...sian sian sian...

will be back in action soon...